There are the usual worries of anyone writing
things others will read, of course. Have I written this well? Is it
understandable? Will people criticise harshly, perhaps even mock me?
When writing down ministry, there are extra
worries. Have I faithfully rendered that which has been given to me?
How sure am I of the leading?
The greatest worry is beyond that, though. I worry
that people will, most likely if they already largely agree, accord
too much weight to my writing. I wish to make a difference, of
course, and I have enough ego that I would like to be recognised to
some extent. But I do not wish to be held in special regard for
insight and wisdom beyond what I consider appropriate for Quakers.
What was said by Fox holds no more authority than
anyone else, nor Naylor, not Penn, nor any weighty or historic
Friend. However much you like my insights, however clearly they might
speak to you, however well they might stimulate your thoughts, I am
no better an authority than you – nor better than the people you
disagree with.
When reading my writings, or the journals of Fox,
or the writings of any of our learned and gifted Friends today, never
forget the greatest source of spiritual insight. Take words such as
mine for inspiration and insight, but always look, first and last, to
the Spirit within.
Written July 2018
